Sunday, November 05, 2006

I'm so tired.
I don't want to do anything anymore.
I don't want to keep trying.
I don't want to reveal myself.
I don't want Love to exist.

I'm not going to do any favors for anyone.
I'm not going to be the girl you once used to know.
I'm living for myself.
I'm not going to be whatever y'all expect me to be.
I do what I want.
&if you don't like it, so be it.

I ain't gonna smile my way through things.
I ain't gonna stand out.
I ain't gonna be the one y'all start running to.
I don't want to be me.

I'll lie low from now on.
Blend with the crowd, &pretend that I wasn't who I was.
I'll be insecure of everything.
So that I'll learn to be alert and keep to only myself.
I'm just going to be whatever I want to be.
And I ain't gonna be significant.

I'm sick and tired of everything.
So just leave me alone.